I added his Instagram today.

It’s been more than a year now since we spoke.

Since I blocked him on Snapchat and everywhere else,

Since I started letting doubt

Creep into my mind and cross my face in shadows

When my friends say things like “I promise” and “I love you.”

When someone I have foolishly confided in says, “I swear I won’t tell anyone.”

It has been more than a year since I started adjusting to avoidant attachment.

Since I behaved rationally and not for attention or an end goal of meaningful connection,

Since I fully trusted any of the people I actively surround myself with.

I added his Instagram today

Because if I can be chill with others who have wronged me,

If I can take ownership and responsibility for my very own, very real part to play,

I am ready to face everything.

I am ready to put the past behind me.

After all, we were fifteen.

We were both still learning.