I’d always known I would be made to let go

Of something that I love

I just didn’t think it’d be you I would have to let fall

This time with nobody around to catch you

This time with my body frozen still

Know that it was hard on me

To be the one to make you feel that way

It was agonizing

To watch your face twist and change,

To know I was the reason for your pain

Who knows maybe you were happier

In the end

Or maybe you would have been

If I hadn't been so indecisive

About my future

And all its raffle ticket prize plans