I trusted you

I loved you

I laughed with you

I cried with you

Now I'm crying all alone

And down in my heart I know I'll never laugh with you again

I'll always love the person I thought you were

But not the person you revealed yourself to be

I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust the same way again

I was so naive

So blinded by the fun we had, the words we exchanged

I couldn't see what everyone else says they saw; what was really there from the start

The cut that you made runs deep

For such a small act, it had a big impact

Lasting

For probably the rest of my life

Thank you for the valuable lesson

As my heart takes it's time to heal

Leaving nothing behind but the memories of you in my mind

I feel stupid and ashamed

I think back to all the good times

Us gossiping together, fangirling together, wishing each other a happy birthday

Us practicing for our school play together, us playing soccer together, 

And us saying our last words to each other 

Back when I still cared about your feelings 

Back when we were still friends

And now we're not

I gave it a few days

Then the days turned into weeks

And the weeks became months

I've lost track of how much time has passed without us saying a single word to each other

I was angry

I was annoyed and confused and disappointed in you

Yet I find myself missing you

I miss your laugh and the way you rolled your eyes at practically everything 

The sound of your voice is starting to fade from my memory

In a few months it will be completely gone and I'll just have the photos of our best and happiest moments to remind me of what you even look like

We'll all grow up

We'll meet new people and make both friends and enemies of them

We'll get jobs and grow old 

And then we'll die

Just like that

I've been wondering…

Will I ever see you again? If you were to apologize, could I really ever truly forgive you? What would I say if I was out walking my dog one day and ran into you? 

I know it's been a while

I know I should let go and move on

But I can't stop thinking about what happened 

And about all the amazing memories that we made together as friends 

And now it's all just a whisper in the wind

I've taken my time but

I think I'm ready now

I'm closing the chapter of my life that had you as one of the main characters 

I'm bookmarking it so that I can come back to it if needed but I'm finally turning the page

I'm turning the page and in this next chapter, you're only the ghost of a name that gets brought up sadly and ever so quietly 

I may have cared for you once 

And now I miss you greatly 

But our time as friends has come to pass