I have something to tell you

He walked by our bus, wiping off his face

Was it a tear? Or something more

That he was trying to brush away

The girl following behind him was shrouded

By opinion and broken down by the splinters of her past

When she goes home, she walks inside a house that stands still

His parents demand things from him and set

Unrealistic expectations

She’s afraid the world won’t ever stop spinning

His head is pounding but his heart

Remains quiet

I just wanted you to know

I didn’t think that would be our last goodbye

I had no idea that that was our last time

Fuck me for being so stupid

For letting you go the way that I did

Ever since I saw you

One of my friends told me last night

The people that have my dream job

Might hate their lives

I had a crush on you

Those words have not yet been authorized

But they refuse to leave my mind

I just wanted you to know that

I am sorry you had to see what you saw

I am sorry you have all those highs and those crazy ass lows

I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you called

I’m sorry the roads turned out to be more icy and winding

Than you initially thought

I’m sorry you never get what you want

I’m sorry I don’t know how to express myself

I am sorry

For everything 

And nothing at all