It’s not the same

You ask, “What changed?”

When deep down you know the answer

It rattles your bones and resonates in your tired soul

We grew older, things got harder and you wonder

“Will it soon get better?”

You’re sitting alone at home letting your thoughts wander

You aren’t depressed...just sad, melancholy

You aren’t crying, you just feel empty

Thinking back to that one person

You never had a real chance with but

You can’t stop looking for them

In every crowded place you go

The worst part is you can’t remember the last thing you said

Before you became strangers again

Your heart is so swollen that you can no longer

Sing along to your most favorite song ever

There was always an ‘over’ in ‘lover’

And a ‘hell’ in ‘hello’

You cross your room and look in the mirror

It’s a wonder how you don’t look any different

But the year has changed you way more

Than you had expected

The way he smelled, the way she touched your waist

The color of his eyes, the way she took your breath away

Do you miss yourself, the person you were before meeting

All of these painful, beautiful heartbreaks

You get to thinking that maybe you should have walked away

& played it safe; quit the game

But then you never would have known the things you now know

You never would have had the same fun or heard the same jokes

You are homesick but you are inside your own house

You feel broken but you are far from being broke

You want to sleep but you find it hard to close your eyes

Because it's scary to think about what could happen in that time

We deserved more days together

You keep seeing things that you don't want to remember

If you could just stop yourself from thinking so much-

But then, you weren't built like that

You were built to last 

Last, and overthink the world

Last, and care about everyone in it

I wonder if the stars taste like you

Everyone keeps saying you need to get over it,

You’ve gotta get over them

They have no idea though

The kind of things dancing and crawling around inside your head

You feel like everything is falling apart

And you are being pulled in by the tide

All of your friends believe that you’re fine

Except for the ones far past the waves

Heads barely above the water, beckoning you

To join them

Behind you there is warmth and sand

People who are happy and breathing normally,

Free from the ocean

Keep on kicking

Why do you feel so guilty for doing what’s best for you

Why does it matter what they think of your choices

You have your reasons

Don’t run through the fire

Your speed doesn’t matter

Take your time to think because

Most people are too lazy and judge

Be careful who you trust