every second you're not here

my heart sinks lower

hearing footsteps out in the hall

voices bouncing off the walls

none of them yours

when the door opens I almost break my neck

turning so fast

straining to see if you've shown up at last

spine straight,

sitting at attention

scanning the room for your face

over and over again

my head and my heart and my gut

all at war

hurricanes and twisters of emotion

resisting the urge to look every time

someone says your name

you're like poison in my veins

killing me slowly

whether you're near or far

there's always a flurry of something in my heart

that I can't get rid of no matter what