I wasn't kidding when I said that thing the other day

The one about running away

I want an escape, yet that isn’t what I need

What I need is to buckle down on studying

To stop wasting so much time daydreaming

So much energy on this godforsaken writing

I always go around saying, “it’s good to be self-aware!”

But that’s only the case if you can take what you learn

About yourself and make a change

If you apply it and keep on pushing

I would leave today if I could

I really, truly would

But I know somehow that there are people

Who’d want to go with me

And others who’d cry or say stuff to make me feel more guilty

They’d try to persuade me to stay in this country and perhaps

I would pretend to hesitate

Maybe I would give it another genuine consideration

I’m ever so serious about this; you should know that I am

The first thing after leaving would be to visit

Every friend and relative

I care about before disappearing completely

I’d fly out to a small secluded island

Since going to the moon is unfortunately not a legit option