it hurts so much

to try

wanting to give up; knowing you can't

the thing i gave up has no return policy

and sadly i wasted it on you

i used to be almost invincible

before you came and shattered me

i can't remember ever being this gullible

you left me broken, vulnerable

empty.

and instead of rising up

i sunk to the very bottom

faster than you could say

"titanic"

yet despite all the 

shit you put me through

i'm still here

loyal like a dog to you

it hurts so much

to know you once loved me

tried to fix us but

i guess the cut just runs too deep

everytime i say goodbye i somehow find myself

right back in your arms

when you leave in the morning

deciding it's not about love

saying it'll never be about love

telling me it'll never be us

you're teaching me to live without

you

& your love

and that's okay because

i need to learn how to live without

you

& your love

it hurts so much

to try for someone

who didn't try hard enough for you

i'm done with your bs

you may be the king but

the queen's got more power

in chess