I’ve tried to pray but

I don’t believe in any gods

I know everything happens for a reason

But I wish I knew what that reason was

I think about what it would be like if we’d never met

Maybe it’d be easier because you’re so hard to forget

My phone is still lighting up in the dark

Only it’s not your name on my screen anymore

And now I’m holding myself in my own arms

I don’t get it, maybe it’s because the tears in my eyes

That are blurring my vision but

None of it makes sense

Please tell me why you did it

Don’t worry, I’m too numb to be pissed