I’ve got no urge to be productive

But I’m afraid to fail

Anymore than I have

I want to have friends

But it takes so much energy

And they won’t stay relevant

For much longer anyway

I am damaged and I am healing

I am challenged and I am changing

There are soulmates to meet

There are songs that need listening

I am here and I am not

Today I feel a little off

Like, I’m not my usual self but

I’m in the same body

I’ve been more sad, more down, more empty

I’ve been full of regret, guilt, anxiety

This isn’t any of those though

I think

That this may be something new

I’m comically bored

I'm chronically tired

I’m always sidetracked

I know I’m annoying but I think I’m cool

I know I’m intense and over-emotional but you don’t have to get involved

Right now I feel a little odd

Please, don’t leave me alone

With a flow of thoughts I have zero control over

My mind really does have a mind of its own