They say life is about what you give, but I don’t think I was meant to give so much away, especially at such a young age. I feel like I’ve crossed too many oceans for someone who is only seventeen. Sure, it’s good, and it shows I have people I care about deeply - so deeply that I would go to such lengths for them. But I just want to be loved. I want to be loved with the same passion that has fueled me on my walks. Because if they don’t feel that same intensity, how can they even consider crossing the ocean for me? I know I am loved by others who would likely go to similar lengths for me, lengths like parting the sea. But it just feels wrong because I want to be loved by the ones I love. So far, all the ones I choose to love, at most, cross puddles for me. 

And it’s not enough for them to love me half-heartedly when I love them with my whole entire being.

It isn’t about whether you are worthy or not beacuse I'll do it anyway. I’ll love you whether or not you love me a little bit, properly, not at all, entirely, or in a really messed-up way. I just want to know if I am worthy of having someone who loves me back wholeheartedly. 

If I am worthy of having somebody live for me the same way I live for so many.